The Kids That Hold The Hatchet Were Born to Carve The Wood But All The Fires in The Forest Made Sure They Never Could, Or, The Last Few Facets of a Misplaced Romantic

by The Ellie Badge

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released October 6, 2012

All songs written, produced, and performed by The Ellie Badge. Copyright 2012

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Track Name: Sink (The Bottom)
I woke up in pieces on the side of the street
With two young innocent eyes staring straight at me
And she said, "Who the Hell are you supposed to be?"
Yeah, she said, "Who the Hell are you supposed to be?"

Well that got me thinking - Dug deep in my soul
And the fact of the matter is I'm twenty-two years old
And I feel like nothing I ever do even matters
In fact, I know that nothing I ever do even matters

And so I sink to the bottom of it all
At least here I know I've got nowhere left to fall

I see the lights on the turnpike, I see the lines in the sand
I can feel a glass ceiling with both my hands
I spent every day of my life wanting what they have
Every day of my fucking life wanting what they have

And so I sink to the bottom of it all
At least here I know I've got nowhere left to fall
And so maybe now I can do my best
to find something other than hopelessness
So I sink to the bottom of it all




Jeremiah Matthews 2012
Track Name: Redwood (The Destroyer)
I've got this Hatchet
It's made of redwood
It cuts through plastic
And God, it feels good
To watch you crumble
Beneath the weight of all that makeup

I've got these glasses
That see through bullshit
Like X-ray vision
Except with your sins
You are a phoney
And there is nothing for you here

And yet I still spray this song out of my charcoal lungs
I never thought that you were listening
Didn't know I could clear a room that fast
And yet, to tell the truth, this song was never meant for you
It is a tattoo - Something I've got to learn to live with

I've got this baggage
Yeah, I've got problems
But I've been doing
My best to solve them
I've got a thousand tiny fractures in my brain

And yet I still pray but not for long
Hoping for something to prove me wrong
I'd like to build something not just hack and slash at the ground
(Cause we were never meant to burn the world down)
But I always get the same line stuck in my head
From that one song, the one that says,
"If you live by the hatchet you'll die without any friends..."

I've got this sadness
It's like a blanket
It keeps me cozy
But I don't think I'd make it
On the outside
I'm like a common criminal

Cause I've got this habit
I'm never happy
There's always something
Waiting for me
To carve a symbol
Let the world know what I've done





Jeremiah Matthews 2012
Track Name: No Rest (The Ferryman)
I was on my way to Rhode Island
To get me some elixir of life
But what I found on the way made me nervous
A world filled with fury and strife
So I parked my chariot right off the turnpike
And I buried all the bodies I could find
And I used up all my quarters, all my pennies, nickels, dimes
Just making sure they made it home alright

But nothing that you ever said was right
You lied to me - You told me I had time
To stop and smell the roses, maybe take a sip of wine
Oh, nothing that you ever said was right

Now everyday I'm bitching about something
My lungs are slowly filling up with bile
My anger seems to rise with the oceans
And I'm rebelling like it's going out of style
I'm just scared that I can't love without an enemy
I'm afraid that I may never be at peace
Like all the good I do is somehow relative
To the hatred that I carry around with me

Cause nothing that you ever said was right
You lied to me - You told me I had time
To stop and smell the roses, maybe take a sip of wine
Oh, nothing that you ever said was right

I am sick and it's tearing me apart
I've got a thousand tiny exit wounds all over my heart
Oh yeah, the sunlight stains the surface but the shadows still slip out
I am contagious and I'm taking it too far

So when I get out of bed in the morning
I make a promise on my life
As long as I have lungs to scream it
You're never gonna take me alive

Cause nothing that you ever said was right
You lied to me - You told me I had time
To stop and smell the roses, maybe take a sip of wine
Oh, nothing that you ever said was right




Jeremiah Matthews 2012
Track Name: Casanova (The Fixer)
Something is wrong, I can feel it.
In the back of my mind, in my bones, I can hear it;
The sounds of your self-propelled-parade
Circling the drain...

Now, you can have my help, if you need it,
When you're huddled in the corner, your gums just a'bleedin',
I can bury that heart with my trusty spade.
I can hide away the pain...

...But there is a price.
Just a clip of your wings my love, don't try to fight.
Come down here with me where I'm always right.
Where we are a cancer but I hold the answers inside,
and I can show them to you...
...I'm gonna fix you.

But if it's esteem that you desire,
Then you can take a quick dip in my fire
and I will burn you. I will turn you
into something that I can respect!
But I will molest all your feelings...
Doesn't that sound appealing?!
I will build you up God knows how high
On a balcony of lies...

...But there is a price.
Just a clip of your wings my love, don't try to fight.
Come down here with me where I'm always right.
Where we are a cancer but I hold the answers inside,
and I can show them to you...
...I'm gonna fix you.

You're asking me,
"This sounds just way too good to be true... What's in it for you?"
Well, I get to feel like I've made a difference,
Sent to you on some kind of mission,
The light to my moth nailed upon this cross
Of broken hearts and teenage indecision.
Maybe you can love me like she did.
I want what I once had, and I'll use you to get it back!

...But there is a price.
Take me under your wings and I promise I won't try to fight.
Take me away, take me someplace way up high
Where they will fill my cup and hold me up to the light,
And I'll be everything I can be...
...You're gonna fix me.




Copyright 2010 Jeremiah Matthews
Track Name: Americana (The Doomed)
I don't wanna get stuck living in a small town; Let the world pass me by
Lay comatose and think about what happened to my life
I wish I could lose these inhibitions, maybe jump on the next plane
Head out West, start fresh some place where no one knows my name

Cause sometimes I get so lonesome I can't think
I just cower in the corner and I shrink
Sometimes I feel like nothing, like I don't mean a thing
Sometimes I wish they'd hurry and bury me

I eat at the same restaurants where the food all tastes like shit
I work the same old job because I can't afford to quit
I get crap from all my neighbors just because I don't go to church
But I don't think Jesus appreciates all of those dirty looks

I'm trapped inside a slice of Americana
A world controlled by plutocrats and thieves
It's nothing like the movies, no it's nothing like it seems
You know, maybe they've already buried me

Nothing ever changes; It's the same old scenery
There's no up's and down's or turn-arounds
and I think that's what I need
Cause I've got no inspiration - My muse is dead and gone
And without a change of pace I just can't sing the same old songs

Oh I wish that I had someone to rip my heart out
Fry it up and leave it on a plate
A breakfast for the buzzards - I hope they like the way it tastes
Cause I havn't got much use for it these days




Jeremiah Matthews 2012
Track Name: A Civil War (The King)
In a country by the ocean
Ruled The White King, good and kind
People lived in peaceful villages
In bright and peaceful times

But across the pond there was a nation
With thoughts of gold and blood
They sent their strongest wizards
To cast a spell on us

It got cold and it got quiet
The clouds blocked out the sky
The fear soon turned to riots
Oh, you could feel the kingdom cry

The king was still and serious
He he had a choice to make
He always had the best intentions
He only wanted to keep us safe

So he summoned his best alchemists
And asked them to estimate
Whether the cost of such a battle
Was a price that we could pay

They said, "There is no price that is too great
in the battle for the soul
You just must make sure that victory
Is worth this devil's toll..."

The King cried out, "I will not bend,
underneath all of this weight.
I will crush all these invaders.
There is far too much at stake."

The King was on a mission
To make sure that we could win
But this war was of attrition
You only get what you put in

So he cut down forests for their lumber
He built catapults and bows
He mined mountains for their minerals
We had iron, steel, and gold

He killed the Bison for their hides
To keep us warm on Winter nights
You can't win a war with wishing
It's tooth for tooth and eye for eye

But soon he went too far
The kingdom crumbling and cold
The price of power was much greater
Than we could ever have foretold

We may have won these savage battles
But we lost a civil war
Within ourselves, we lost our principles
Before we drew our swords

And on the rubble sat the White King
Where the sun no longer shines
He always had the best intentions
But they warped his fragile mind

As for me, you know I don't blame him
I'm sure the pressure was too great
Oh God, to be a king in wartime...
Please save me from such a fate



Jeremiah Matthews 2012
Track Name: Ignorant Forever (The Backseat)
When I was a kid I didn't know about my social class
I just stared out the window and watched the telephone poles fly past
I didn't think about things like good and evil
There was never such a thing as a grey area
With my dad at the wheel and my mother by his side
I never had to worry about the world outside
I could stay innocent forever in the backseat

I never ever wanted to leave the backseat
I never ever wanted to learn about all these terrible things
I was naked and honest. I was so young and happy
I would cover my ears and scream because I had to stay
Ignorant forever in the backseat

But then it was you and me, a snake, and a rosebush
We were so close to the desert all we needed was a little push
I'd grown to love these nylon seatbelts, they made me feel so safe
But then you tapped on my window and asked me to come and play
A whisper in one ear, a sin in the other
And all of a sudden all we had was each other
No more running away to the backseat

I never ever wanted to leave the backseat
The windows kept me safe from thousands of would-be cannibal kings
I always thought that I'd stay stupid and naked
It was all in my head, the world was what I made it
Innocent forever in the backseat

But one day they came for me, they tore me out of my safety belts
Left me all alone on the sidewalk. It was so cold there by myself
But over time I thought about it and came to see that I was wrong
When the sun came up I felt it around me
It was time to move along...

Well maybe there's more to life than the backseat
I mean, in the grand scheme when have I ever known
what the best thing was for me?
I guess it's time to lose these shackles
Let the sunlight burn my eyes
Because I'll never learn to drive in the backseat






Jeremiah Matthews 2012