We Are Stray Bears

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released September 12, 2011

All songs written, recorded, produced, and performed by Jeremiah Matthews 2011

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Track Name: Bloodletter
"Bloodletter"

Every incident is catalogued and stored with the rest
In the basement of the bungalow that's deep in my chest
I've been letting all these leeches take a piece of my heart
Now my blood has come to boil so I'll let it all out

I've been crucified forever; all tied up with some string
Hung on a pole to scare some crows but there's none to be seen
I'm told that it's too cold but they'll be back in the Spring
They found it better in the meadow where the kids wear skinny jeans

Well I could write songs about drugs and New Orleans
Piss off my girlfriend, steal all her blue jeans
Sing about the river, yeah I'd put on a show
But you'll never live forever if your life is a joke

This song is all just a bloodletter
This song is all just a bloodletter
They said if I let it all out I would feel better
Yeah, this song is all just a bloodletter

I keep my eye on the prize, yeah I keep wanting to hate her
And I keep trying to keep writing to the lowest denominator
I don't know if you can see that all these feelings are fake
But they are, and all this pretending is just too much to take

Maybe I should write some lines that just don't make any sense
Because I'm sick of singing songs about love in the past tense
And I know that if I try that I could compare
All the problems of a poet with the life of a bear

We are all stray bears...
We wonder and we wonder and search for something we can share
It could be good news or the horrible truth, I don't care
Because we are all stray bears

Jeremiah Matthews 2011
Track Name: You. Me. Picnic. Milkshake. Fuzzy.
"You. Me. Picnic. Milkshake. Fuzzy."

I never understood the art of karaoke
It always looked like quite a bit of fun
I never took the time and no one ever showed me
I always hoped that you would be the one

Because you see things the way they are supposed to be
and I see things the way they are
I can't believe I'd ever let things get this crazy
I can't believe I'd let it go this far...

You and Me (Oh!) Share Chemicals!
Mix our blood with the Earth and sand!
The Royal We (Oh!) Work miracles!
Become one when you take my hand...

Do you remember last December?
Do you remember me...?

The other day I found a needle in a landfill
The other day I fell apart
I swear to God I'll run away, I'll run if you will
I swear to God, I'll even cross my heart!

You and Me (Oh!) Share Chemicals!
Mix our blood with the Earth and sand!
The Royal We (Oh!) Work miracles!
Become one when you take my hand...

Do you remember last December?
Would you remember me...?

I'm slipping into the hole of how I felt when I fell down
Cause we live on two different sides of down


copyright Jeremiah Matthews 2010
Track Name: Under My Tongue
"Under My Tongue"

Take me away until I have been saved
Am I not worth saving?
Sing me a song, but don't take too long
Please just don't keep me waiting

Look into the fire tell me what you see
Gravitate to Hell, gravitate to me
If it's really there show it all to me
Give me quite a scare, give it all to me

All of those folks that you used to know
They don't know you anymore
They all have friends that they can't stand
And dress like it's 1974

Say you got a problem? Say there's nothing left?
Take another pill! Shove it in your chest!
Tell you where to go, tell you who to be
Show you how to live, show you how to bleed

A long time ago I wrote you a note
And I buried it under my tongue
Now when I speak, my tongue in my cheek
It reminds me of when I was young

Gonna take it, take it all and watch it burn...

When I was alone, you wrote me a note
And you buried it under my tongue
So now when I sing I lie through my teeth
And nothing I say is enough


Jeremiah Matthews 2011
Track Name: Trojan Horse
"Trojan Horse"

"Why did I let you in?"
I've been asking myself ever since you left
Why did I let you in?
I guess it's too much fun to play pretend

But it was all for one, yeah, all for one
You have no love to share with anyone
All in fun, yeah, all in fun
Not a bone in your body is a serious one
You go for the throat, you go for the lungs
You take out the old and you take out the young
The Devil came down and set you right on course
Little girl, you're my Trojan horse

I put up a wall back then
I kept out everything
But you were not like them
You were not like them

And I didn't know that your play was already cast
But I guess that it was fun while we hoped it would last


Jeremiah Matthews 2011
Track Name: Penelope
"Penelope"

It's one last call for alcohol. You're slow and pressed against the wall.
You said, "Someone's got a passenger and god, I hope it's you!"
Row by row and house by house by even numbers headed South
I even held your hair back while you puked..

And though I've had this feast before, my darling, I do admit for you I'm starving
Living for too long in poverty
And now my heart you do caress, posses my deep and sunken chest
With love every time you look at me

Oh Penelope, are you listening
To the words that flow from the Cemetery?
And will I be in your league when we're underneath?
My dear Penelope..

So just because that didn't really happen, scribbled down on dirty napkins,
Doesn't make it fictional to me.
Between every character I imitate and love song that I emulate
The metaphors, they teach me who to be

Oh Penelope, are you listening
To the words that flow from the Cemetery?
And will I be in your league when we're underneath?
My dear Penelope..


Jeremiah Matthews 2009
Track Name: Darling
"Darling"

Darling, do you know what I'm talkin' about
When I sing it with a shiver from the edge of my mouth?
Darling, do you know what I'm talking about?
Cause everybody knows it's you...

Well if the Devil's in the details I guess I know him pretty well
I remember every burning second of that night we spent in Hell
The way we set the world on fire and we sank deep in our desires
Then you called me your everything and I called you a liar!

Darling, do you know what I'm talkin' about
When I sing it with a shiver from the edge of my mouth?
Darling, do you know what I'm talking about?
Cause everybody knows it's you...

Well maybe I change at the drop of the hat; one minute it's this one minute it's that
But I always assumed that the way that we bloomed was the same...
Is it so wrong that it affects my mood? One day I'm the sun, one day I'm the moon
I don't think it's wrong that when I hear a song it tends to take over my brain!

Oh Every time I try the trigger tends to get stuck
I've been dead since I was ten and you just don't give a fuck
Well silly me, I made believe that we both had a place
Where we're staring long and hard at the holes in your face...

Well all I ever wanted was for somebody to hold me down
Just come in like a storm, blow down the door, and make me settle down
I don't know who I am but I guess that it just wasn't enough to make you stay
So put down your lightning my friend and get out of the way

Darling, do you know what I'm talkin' about
When I sing it with a shiver from the edge of my mouth?
Darling, do you know what I'm talking about?
Cause everybody knows it's you...

Darling, now I know what you're all about
Yeah, cause every time you cry you let a little bit out.
and I've been keeping every tear, every hope, every fear
And you know I'm never gonna let it out.


Jeremiah Matthews 2011
Track Name: You Can Disappear
"You Can Disappear"

Wait...
All I wanna do is wait for you
Don't know what I'm gonna say to you
If you ever come home

Take...
Everything you ever gave to me
Put it in a shallow grave with me
And leave me alone

All the things you promised me are gone

Hate...
I hate the smell of gasoline
But I know that it is what I need
If I'm gonna get anywhere

I guess that that's one way
To explain what I am going through
The way it is with me and you
It's a lot like that

I wish that I could take it back
I wish that I could take it back

And if you ever want a souvenir
You can take all my memories and disappear

You can disappear



Jeremiah Matthews 2011
Track Name: High School Hold
"High School Hold"

I've watched your slow descent
I've watched your spine get bent
You know, that's not the only way...

And you think they know the answers
To all those stupid questions
Like, "How far can I drag myself before I up and fade away?"

You're gonna die if you keep on asking
You're gonna leave the same impression
That you left on everyone back in high school

I've watched your eyes
Sink deeper still with every little lie
Oh please, you act so victimized. I'm sick of it.

They're got that high school hold on you
And you don't know what to do
You should've never let them through, you should've never let them through

You're gonna die if you keep on asking
You're gonna leave the same impression
That you left on everyone back in high school

You cut ties like the back of a jack knife
You'd rather burn rubber than look me straight in the eye
It stops now, you're coming home tonight
We may be young at heart
But not nearly enough to let this fall apart
We'll turn over every leaf until we find you a fresh start

We're going down together and we will live forever.
Track Name: Valerie (hidden track)
"Valerie"

We must unwrite all these epitaphs written in regretful tones
We must cradle ever broken heart and help them find a home
And remember every evening when we're sitting by the phone
That we are not alone...

When I stare into the ocean I will think of nothing else
Other than the little fishys and the continental shelf
So when I slip into the silence at the bottom of the well
At least I know that I won't be by myself...

Cause the world will tear you open and they'll bury you in greed
They'll rip out all your insides and tell you who to be
But with every last castration I will smile just because
I know that there's one thing they can't touch...

So when they tell you all their stories and they sing their siren song
I hope you stare into their sunken eyes and refuse to sing alone
Cause at the end of every day there's only one thing that remains
And it's rushing through our veins!



Jeremiah Matthews 2011